I just officially withdrew from Texas State. Hooray!
I sincerely believe in the importance of continually educating yourself. “Never stop Learning,” is not my mantra, because I do it automatically. I don’t need it as a mantra. The whole concept of continual learning and growth is deeply a part of who I am.
I am cheering because Texas State is the third institution of higher learning I have attended, and the second one that I found to be completely stultifying. Too often, my courses were an impediment to learning rather than a pathway to it.
Were all of my classes that way? No.
I took a great class on ethics, an amazing class on art history that completely changed how I thought about European history, a creative writing class that allowed me to hone my writing and critiquing skills in unexpected ways, and a spectroscopy class that I loved.
However, I could fill volumes with things about my other courses/professors/labs that were frustrating, irritating, depressing, infuriating, and just absurd. One day maybe, I’ll write a book or a series of articles that properly spell out all the absurdities that go along with big universities. I suspect many of those topics have been covered already in books by other authors. Still, I was the 18 year old kid once at UGA blaming myself for not being able to adapt to the university setting. I was that kid who was so proud of her A.P. scores and of her love of math and science, who felt like a failure because she wasn’t getting anything out of her classes.
“You get out of it what you put into it.” I must have told myself that a thousand times. Unfortunately, it is not always true. I actually can’t name a single class at UGA that I believe was worth my time in the two years I spent there. By comparison, Austin Community college reignited my love of chemistry, geology, and math. I still remember the kid I was, skulking at the idea of going to a community college. I was too smart for that, I was going to a ‘real school.’ It seems so naive now.
I hate the idea of all the kids that blame themselves for our ridiculously backward educational model. Someday, I’ll have to write more about it in detail.
Today, I have just over 10 days before the start of Makersquare.
I no longer have time to worry and lament about past wrongs. Now, I am going into a program that I wholeheartedly believe in, run by talented, passionate people that I believe in. My ambition is to work in a field that has changed the world several times over in my lifetime and yes, I think I will be good at it at some point.
I know some of these things will sink in more after I start using them regularly. That is why I haven’t had to revisit the HTML tutorials. I know it because I have used it. I need to be there with everything, and while I realize that Makersquare is going to help me with that, (that is why it is an intensive 40-hour-a-week, immersive program) I want to hit the ground running. I want to excel. I want to minimize the things I have to review and maximize the ‘learning new techniques,’ and ‘working new challenges.’ I want to shorten my learning curve. Now, I am wondering if that is a silly thing to say? Famous last words?
I want to dive in. It’s as simple as that.